Smells

Today I feel like my life is totally out of my control.

I try to take control as best I can, but just when I think I have a handle on life something gets thrown into the mix that I don't quite expect and...

Well, things just fall apart.

Blame it on pregnancy hormones or something...

So, I caught some little bug this weekend. Under normal conditions this would be no big deal, but with the HG any dip in my immune system causes me to be ill again. I am so tired of vomiting! If I ever puke again in my entire life it would be too soon! The littlest smell will set me off and make me wish I had a little bubble to live in where no outside smell could bother me.

How could it be any better than this?

So, being pregnant has it's ups and downs... one of the downs is random crying over sappy things.
I was listening to Pandora Radio and a Lifehouse song came on called "Everything". I was holding Ryan in my arms while he slept and was just listening to the song and I started crying. The lyrics just made me think of how much I love my sweet little family.

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
where I find peace, again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light, to my soul.
You are my purpose, you're everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You still my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better, any better than this.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Anyway. Just sitting here crying and being sappy while my little boy snuggles up in my arms and sleeps.